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just something i've realised

Sat Jun 7, 2008, 8:23 PM
well... the night before last night i came to the realisation that my best friend can't be my best friend anymore. why? i'm sick of being used. i've never liked being used, and really the only reason i've let her stick being my best friend for as long as i did is because i was hoping that there was actually someone nice underneath it all. she thought it was over something majorly small that i never cared about anyway. what it was REALLY about is what i'm sure many giving, and caring people can relate to as well. it's about the fact that i've always been there for her. if she chose to actually tell me what was wrong (which was barely ever) and i never tried to drag it out of her, except a few times like when she'd give me the cold shoulder, i would actually try and comfort her, and help her make things right again. not so long ago i was telling her of something that was deeply troubling me at the time, and all that she could say was "i have nothing to say to that". now consolidating words, no advice on what to do about it, nothing but those useless words. and then when i'm trying to find out what's wrong with her, all she can do is say "nothing" when clearly something IS wrong. on top of that, she's always doing in front of me stuff she knows will offend me. she knows it because i told her it does. people like that i can never be friends with. i just can't fucking do it. i hate being used, and i hate people going out of their way to offend me. i just can't fucking stand it. it's really no wonder that i've had really really low self esteem the whole time i've been friends with her.

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  • Current Residence: Bundaberg, Queensland, Australia
  • Interests: music, poetry, reading, scaring people, bondage, foggy nights, hairdye, goth, tatts & peircings
  • Favourite movie: donny darko, the crow, corpse bride, nightmare before christmas, any vamp movie
  • Favourite band or musician: HIM, Nightwish, System of a Down, Aiden, Bullet for my Valentine, Metallica, Disturbed, Sentenced
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  • Favourite game: Age of Conan, or GH3
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  • Favourite cartoon character: The Brain, stuie griffin, roger, brian, Daria morgendorpher
  • Personal Quote: it's not rape, it's surprise sex
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thank you so much darlin` :)

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why is it that children, more often than not, end up JUST like their parents? why is it that so many BAD parents have the MOST influence on the children
thanks for :+fav:ing my work.

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why is it that children, more often than not, end up JUST like their parents? why is it that so many BAD parents have the MOST influence on the children
beautiful avatar..love ville! :heart:
thanks for the fav^___^
haha. you're welcome. btw, i'm glad that you like my avatar.

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thank you for the :+fav:!!! how've you been? :)

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